This will take a period of mourning to be able to speak again. If we do not gain control over out system of government we will revert into chaos. Much to think about.

I'm on a mouse roll. Let's talk of Tuesday. Are you frightened? I'm frightened. The collective hatred of the Hillary who is not Bernie is so strong as to actually pose the possibility of a complete fascist moron becoming the president. White, land owning founding fathers are turning over in their graves. Maybe. Maybe the idea of a black president followed by a female president has them even more disturbed. Let us not forget the whiteness and male privilege that this country was founded upon. The white males in today's America are losing their jobs, losing their wives and most sadly, losing their privilege. Transgender people are now running for office! SHUT UP! No wonder there is a huge increase in gun sales right now! Kill the fags! Make America great again! There is a lesson here . . . but those in need of the learning do not have the capacity to comprehend. That's the current conundrum. The Republican program of the dumbing down of American society has been so successful that intelligence and reason are now vacant from the political process. The other corporate owned party, the Democrats, have stuck to their outdated methods for so long that they have no ability to counter the absurdity of the Tea Party wing nut hordes. This could get seriously interesting. We could actually find ourselves in an economic and political isolation chamber shunned and rejected by the rest of the world. The World Bank, the World Health Org., the IMF would have no recourse but to follow the rule of the majority. The country with the most devastating nuclear arsenal and outrageously overfunded military force would be seen as the ultimate threat to humanity. Even the top level banking elite would have to cut ties with this Godzilla gone mad. That is, unless this has been the plan all along . . . chaos, collapse, human culling, then the elite rise from the ashes to enslave the remaining humans to rule in luxury and leisure for the next millenium. It's just a bad dream. Status quo will win out and we wait another four years to vote for real change.

This is "Trans Awareness Month". Facebook says it is, so I guess it must be true. By "Trans" I take it to mean transgender or transsexual, or transnormative . . .I'm in there somewhere. I, for one, am certainly aware of my being trans. I'm aware of losing my partner of twenty years because I'm trans. (yeah, that "I love the person inside you" is bullshit, at least in my life) I'm aware of losing my home, jobs, friends and extended family because I am trans. I'm aware of being very alone because I am trans. I'm aware of wanting to die because I am trans. I've got the awareness thing down. I'm aware every minute of every day of that fact and all they? we? whothefuck? are asking the cis world is that you be aware that we exist for one month. Be aware that most of us are not celebrities with surgically enhanced bodies which is the only version of us you will see in the media, unless we've murdered someone or have been murdered which is more likely. You seem to like us when we've been murdered. It makes the headlines once in awhile. Of course you will mis-gender us in print and call us "men disguised as women" or vise-versa. You will seldom use our real names or real identities (the ones we know ourselves to be)and go for the hate value of whatever shit tabloid you write for. One month of accepting that we are real, human, as valuable as anyone else. A one month "cease-fire" would be nice, too. C'mon, is that too much to ask? We're not asking for a holiday or anything . . . . just one month to not be afraid to walk in public, eat at a restaurant without being stared at, shop in a store without being asked to leave because we make the regular customers uncomfortable . . . we are regular customers, you twats. (Sorry, I'm getting ahead of myself, the profane ranting comes later.) Other trans people I know are being quite positive about this whole thing, posting "I Support Trans Awareness" and such. I just don't see it that way. Vanity Fair, Time, media exposure have certainly increased awareness but to what avail? This year which is not ended yet has the highest trans murdered rate to date. Is there a correlation? The majority of the victims this year as in every year are trans women of color. Where is the outrage over that? Is it racism mixed with transphobia or is there a socioeconomic aspect to consider? How about more awareness of these facts and less awareness of breast augmentations. Still waiting for the profanity part? Go fuck yourself!

Oh my! Not since last April have I spoken. I've tried to stay away from the dark side but as the last days of this electoral farce come to a close I will speak again. You fools, you fools, you self destructive morons. . . how this advertising agency called main stream media has you in their manipulative vise grip. The collective ignorance of the American people is overwhelming. How else could a moronic, privileged, shit for brains become the hero of the new, Tea Party version of the Republican party? What a colossal miscalculation! Boehner the boner is gone, he didn't realize that ignorance can't be controlled. The "Turtle" speaks as if he still has relevance but he is as gone as his compatriot. A once literate, regardless of how conservative, Republican Party is a thing of the past and there will never again be a give and take, able to negotiate, Congress that I grew up with. There are no more O'Neils, Kennedys, Byrds, Johnsons who were willing to sit and talk to hash out the needs of the people. Now there are only tools of corporations who defy compromise and viciously denounce any opposition to their agenda. Voters did this. These people did not elect themselves. Yes, there was oodles of corporate money behind the elections but you/we the voters did not do our diligence in searching out the truth. We as a collective accepted the media version of the truth. Shame on us/you. There is a slim chance that a moronic, unacceptable human could actually be placed as the President of the United States and that speaks of the decades of the dismantling of the American public school system. "An educated populace is a dangerous populace" . . . said no one in public but understood by every elitist string puller in the upper levels of the "seeing eye" pyramid. Why is there no Middle Class in America today? Why are public schools so unworthy as to make you vote for "charter schools" which are being portrayed as the "answer to the problem". Are you that stupid? Well yes, I guess so because we are where we are, eh? WE are certainly at a crossroads. A reckoning is due and the Devil will have his day. However, as a believer in species evolution I think intelligence has a lot to do with survival. A once unimaginable empire is about to crumble to dust because of the arrogance of the banking elite. Good. I've seen too much. I've fought against higher powers to no avail. It's going to come to a bad end very soon but the intelligent survivors will lead what is left to a new future. I hope it is a better future.